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what would say, if i was lying?

what would say, if i never fell in love with you from the first moment and later did, because of what you had to give, of what you seemed to be, out of a superficial view, instead of what you are?

what would you say, if the pain wasn't, because of you were gone? that it was more the feeling you gave me, which made me addicted and i haven't missed you as person, only your big front?

what would you say, if i didn't know you at all and couldn't see what you were going through, because i was much too busy with hiding myself.

what would you say, if i tell you i havn't noticed myself, it wasn't love we felt and intimacy was a have to, which was hurting me?

what would you say, if i knew she would be the one next to you someday.

what would you say, if i lost all the weight, cause i thought it would bring everything back to me, to make her go and give me the space to be.

what would you say, if i talked to you and finally found out we have nothing to share and nothing in common.

what would you say, if i'll tell you, that i've noticed the games we were playing in the last years and i don't want to play anymore.

what would you say, if i'll ask you to let me go, to abdicate the endorsement i gave you, cause you seemed to 'need' it so much - and i was using this to hold you.

what would you say, if i truely start to love you now and let you go, want you to be happy and satisfied with your life.

what would you say about true love, honesty and freedom and about growing together?