everything is fair 

explore #3
1/640sec — f/3.5
ISO 1600


everyone’s got secrets
and i thought i was yours
i never knew anyone
could come so close
to be a part of you
i woke up this morning.. to realize
that you were never there
and i, probably lost



but today is different
i’m no bigger, never stronger
just trying harder
keeping pace with my heart
this anatomy of melancholy
is laced to every memory of you
but this time i’m not leaving
and i’m not left behind



everything is fair
there is no control
why bother trying
you know before being told
bitter & sad it’s all there
i wish i could turn it all around
but who would suffer now
who hasn’t suffered already
when will you see
i’m not who you want me to be



i know i wont be riding a sports car
or living your fairy tale.. nor mine
those tight suits don’t fit me
my smile isn’t an inscription
or a reciprocation of duty
i was never fishing to be special
just trying harder to listen
to this faint music compromise
this beating heart.