Should I cry or laugh on this one? ;)

I had to peel a throw away copy of this image off of my darkroom sink. So maybe I haven't printed since I made this series,... I notice this yesturday,... A leak in the roof with chinese water torture vibe permeates the darkroom. I wat using it to smoke, and write,... I quit smoking 13 days and 23 hours and fifty minutes ago. This morning I woke up from a dream where I rolled a big cigarette and felt guilty about smoking it before to weeks cold turkey stopping. The only reason I caN quit like this is because I told myself, as a non smoker, I will smoke occasionally, trouble is, I do not know when I will become non smoking,... Probably a trip to Europe would be the test! But as a non smoker. Just once and a while? in any case, Probably should cry,... I was smoking then, burning myself out like this bird who probably got hit by lightning on a powerline, and then torn to shreads by scavengers,... Today i took a pic of seagals from my car that will be better, They wer alive, Not ripped up like this bird,