This is Me

This is me hidden but very much on display- just deconstructed. You won't see any nude here. My self goes beyond my body, very far beyond, so I don't need to show my body to feel better with myself or demonstrate anything. This set is about who I am and not how I look, which are two different things. I don't think there would be a photo of my face either, but I could have my moment of hedonism and I don't want to restrain myself if this happened

To me, my body is the container of what is inside me, and my pretty face and body cannot always convey what's inside, since that inside is deeply affected by thoughts, feelings, my character, my temper, my emotions, etc.. - things that are not visible. If I make a self-portrait, I’m not really saying anything about my self, except “Hi, this is how I look like”. In that regard, to me, human body is limited to convey those things that make of me – ME, i. e. a human being and not only a woman with the usual nice features of any woman; and a particular kind of woman, too. We are also physique, and I love my body being flesh and bones, I love being touchable and, therefore, real. However, it is a great liberation to see my self beyond my body, and, at the same time, love my body very much; there is no contradiction in this, at least to me.

To me, most nudes are limited since most of the time I see nakedness and not nudeness - two very different things. I see Art in nudeness, but not in nakedness. Otherwise, I would be watching a piece of artwork each time I take my clothes off and a nice light is falling on my bottom :O. Nudeness is very difficult to photography, since it goes beyond the lighting and the nice body; it is exposing something beyond the flesh through the flesh. I’ve seen many photos of naked people, very artistically done, but very few nudes.

What drives me to create? It is a need to express myself, like eating to feed your body. I create to give way to my imagination, to my thoughts. It is my way to reflect about the outer world and my inner world. I need to write and I need to do something artistically visual, like painting or photoshopping or photographing, or whatever. To create is like being pregnant all the time and delivering all the time, with the pain and pleasure that that brings. That is to me create.