#139: It's all about (all) good and (all) bad 

(In my case) "bipolarity" means either feeling very good or very bad most times. I hate it but i am helpless actually. I tend to over(re)act and exaggerate moods, feelings, euphoria and depression. It is very hard to deal with for most people and it also is for myself. There is no "middle way" most times. No feeling "okay" or "comme ci comme ça"... Most times it's black or white. I can be very enthusiastic and motivated when i am convinced and trusting in something, some job or whatever. But when i sense a foul odor of lies, disrespect, betrayal and exploitation I am quick in turning my back, blocking off and spiralling down in feeling bad about it. Usually feeling bad about feeling bad about it... You see? ... Well, i am working on it, cause it is not providing an easy life as you can imagine. Plus... i hate biting my nails. But I will manage to stop this also. I swear.

On the other hand it's pretty easy to make good friends with Sascha. Just be true, be honest, be that 1% ;-) I can take criticism good or bad if it is straight and direct not behind my back. I am willing to learn, wanting to get better in communicating and making less failures, creating less misunderstandings. But as usual, it's a dialogue mostly, meaning there are at least two (thumbs?) to blame.... two that have to reflect.