Hello My Friends,

I apologize for not being more active on iPernity lately. I do receive the daily emails with everyones' updates and do see what all the neat things you've been posting to your pages. Although I really want to play more than anything, I've now come to the eve of my surgery for my double mastectomy and am just plain dazed and a bit shell shocked. It's one of those things that's just too huge to wrap your head around, but I'm trying.

I am to arrive at the hospital at 8:45 a.m. tomorrow morning (March 20th) and will go through the usual stuff one goes through when they are going to have an operation. I'm not going to have reconstruction. It is the right choice for me and I've never waivered from it. The part that is going to be weird is going from a DDD/F cup to flat chested in about three hours. I battled breast cancer in 2007 and thought that was going to be the end of it, but my body had other ideas. By having the double mastectomy, I reduce my chances of another breast cancer occurance by 95%. I'll take those odds and hope I can find pretty camisoles to wear that make me feel feminine on the outside. I still feel feminine on the inside :-)

I'll be in the hospital one or two nights and then will come home to loving husband, dear daughter who will help me with drains, dressing and stuff, and a cat who will not understand why she cannot sleep on my chest for a few months :-) Before the month is out, I will meet with the oncologist to see what the next course of treatment will be.

I just want to once again, thank each and every one of you who has been following along with this drawn out story of mine. If I could reach out and hug each one of you and brush my lips on your cheek in thanks, gratitude and friendship, I would do just that. You are truly wonderful friends!

Much love and affection to you all,

Victoria

P.S. I'LL BE BACK :-)