This is the time, I can feel it inside: I'm about to move on. Which may also include cutting off most of my previous contacts depending on how I'm being received and treated. Funny, I've sought that fresh start about half a year ago, by trying to move to a different country. I figured it to be easier then. On the other hand, it would have been a bit cowardly, too.

It'll be interesting to find, what's going to happen when I start this process of consolidating my relationships - or what's left of them in some cases. Some of them already appear like dead skin that needs to be peeled. Others begin to feel like clothing that doesn't fit anymore and needs to replaced. But without meaning to rush to premature conclusions, one thing is for sure: I am not the same I used to be. This may not become too apparent in day-to-day situations, but very obvious in all things related to anything emotional. Some might argue, I'm not being emotional at all. I would have to agree to a certain degree. This next stage of my life is not going to be about heart and soul. It's going to be about me and getting what's mine. I will put myself first and not feel bad about it any more. For now, this is taking all my attention and strength. Naturally, there's no room for anyone in my life besides me right now. Egotistic? You bet. It was about time...