Tired of feeling lonely, and yet I keep setting myself up to be just that. Why can't I be happy with just me and my daughter? Why do I find it so hard to just be happy as we are? Why must I feel like I need someone else? I feel so stupid for thinking this way. I wish like hell that I could just fix this whole thing. I wish that I could fix me, that I could stop feeling broken, that I could stop feeling like everything I ever do is just going to blow up. I'm tired of feeling like the harder I try, the more things fall apart. Tired of feeling, period. I guess I just need to learn to focus. Focus on her, focus on my goals, focus on what I want to accomplish and what I stand for. I don't know if I even know how to do that. Hell, won't know if I don't try, right?