mosaiq's blog

it is far too hot here...

and my jaw still hurts a bit

missing him...

scream.

hurts.

i got it back!!!

with everything in it!!!

YAY!

lost my moneypurse. or it was stolen.

FUCK

now i've been three days at the university.
first day was administrative stuff, yesterday we started with "painting techniques", we built canvas, which we were priming today (you can see it on this photo). time to time we made some theory. today and tomorrow we have to presentate a specific subject. mine will be tomorrow.
we are 9 in this year and on the institute there are 55 students.

it s a bit tough for my tendons, but i think i somehow will make it ;-)

things go a way you didn't expect. but on the other one you knew exactly that it would happen.

what do you do when you don't know what you feel, and your head creates one scenario after the other, never giving you a rest, and let you run in circles. when you simply think too much, and can't make any decision because everything is drowned in thoughts, theories and logic.

too much of my head.

WHY the hell are doctors, the hardly ever i need them, always on holidays when it is urgent???? goddamfuckinghellshit ****************************

in the last weeks othello brought me very nice bedfellows...

i had two dead mice, and one living mouse in my bed.

..okay i can take this somehow. i am not happy bout that and it is disgusting.

but TODAY he brought a dead RAT.

i am used to mice and rats because i had both as pets. but there s some diffrence between a wildliferat in my bed and a breeded rat at home...

*ARGH*

reading. and suddenly a meeoow. two paws, and a face.

a red one, with huge eyes.

my little boy came home.

the sun shines.

fine.

a bit like a mother waiting for her child that comes home late. it is unbelievable how strong a relationship to an animal can be...

i "have" fugu since he was one month old, and for me he is so much worth.

i am sleeping and dreaming of him coming home, and then i wake up, he is not here. i have dreams of him, lonley, wounded crying for help, but i can't reach him.

the only thing i can do is running around in the darkness and call him, hoping he will hear me.

so now i go for a walk again.

because i was climbing on a wall, on the search for my beloved fugu.

today i called several vets and 2 homes for homeless animals

i covered ~140 trees, walls and lamps with "missing" posters

and was running around calling fugu until 11 p.m.

I got a call from a woman telling me she's seen fugu 2 weeks ago (at that moment i didn't miss him, but now i know a bit more about his territory)

and an absolutley lovely sms from a woman who saw my posters, telling me she had the same happening a week ago, and that i shall not worry, as her cat returned mine will do the same.

my knees hurt. but my state of absolute desperation became to hope.

i am tired. really.

one of my kitties, fugu, didn't come home from his usual night's stroll, which was in the night fron sunday to monday. he lives here since to years, found him and his brothers when he was one yoear old, i saw him growing up, and he is very important to me. i start to get really worried... i am afraid he is wounded or got hit by a car..

please, all you best thoughts and fingers crossed that he comes home soon.

you can watch the video  www.takedaryu.at/index.php?action=show&pageID=11  here . you have to click "Aikido 3 (Jiyugatashiai))"

i had my first tournament :-)

wanna know what place?

click :

www.flickr.com/photos/mosaiq/816596131/

i made it. still not realising. I made it. in october i will start with restoration

:-) thank you all. most of the tests are over.
short summary:

<b>1st day</b>:
drawing your hand - 1,25h time
<i> was okay, could do better, but not enough time</i>
 painting a still life, with six objects  - 1h
<i> very small, and i made the mistake, i was sitting in another angle to the desk, but the pic is okay, it is just not paralell to the paper, but i was one of the few ppl who finished it, because of the size ;-)<i>
writing a text about your motivation <i> kiiiiitsch *lol*</i>
writing a description of a picture <i> i started to detailed, i could have written a lot more but not enough time, i knew the painter and the name of the picture, no idea if this description was good...</i>

<b> second day</b>
retouche 1h <i> was okay</i>
paperwork  1h<i> not really happy with it but okay</i>
interview and history of arts test <i> was quite good, i wasn't too nervous and stuff...</i>
cemistry test 1h <i> blaaaaaaaaaaaah not negative but no idea if good enough</i>



if i pass this  all, i am not officially acepted but then in autumn i will be or somewhat, we all haven't figured out what exactly is ment with that....

so lets see what tomorrow brings