Not only do I write this blog but I read it and look at the hit numbers as well. In fact I check my numbers a couple of times a day. And I noticed that my numbers have fallen slightly. Not that I have a huge following, I am happy getting a consistent ten hits per piece. That anyone is reading this on a regular basis is gratifying. It's funny, I would write on flickr about my insecurity with hits on my pictures and now I am doing the same thing with this blog. I know we all want an audience but where is the "self" satisfaction of our endeavors. Doing a job well for the sake of the job, there is a quality in Zen Buddhism about living our lives in a thoughtful manner in the sense that we pay attention to what we do and focus on our activities as if each thing we do is at that moment the most important thing in the world. I am not sure the exact term but the end result is being constantly engaged with our lives and not drifting through time as a leaf being blown around the sky. People with the victimhood syndrome live that way. We call it being on autopilot, drifting, sleep walking, going into auto mode you know the drill. In some ways this is not so bad, in the way we know in a bone grounded manner what we are doing that we can simply react and perform the action without thought. Zen Archers strive for that action without thought but that is not acting in life without awareness. At least that is my understanding, if I am wrong then so be it, but I like my interpretation.
I want to take pictures and do my art with thought and awareness, that it reflects elements woven throughout with threads of my being. Light is reflected as moods, tones as notes of not thought but feeling or catching a moment from my day. A curve tells you who I am. I don't want to hide in my art, au contraire I want to reveal the inner me, the core me, the me I don't even see as exposed by my choices. And it is in our choices with our art that exposes more than many of us may wish to reveal. Do we take pictures of people or places, can we expose ourselves by picturing others or engage them in this interchange between photographer and subject. In our choices this is our exposure, who, what we do.
As I cruise this website and look at your art, little bits of you and me fall off the screen.
ta ta for now