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So yes, I made it back form St. Lucia in one piece. 

It rained most of the time on my vacation.  That was ok though.  I met some really great people, ate and drank myself silly and got to relax a bit.  A 4 day whirlwind visit but now I can say I have been there.

I read this amazing book on vacation.  "Eat Pray Love" By Elizabeth Gilbert.  Basically an autobiography about this woman who leaves the country to "find herself".  I love the way this woman writes.  It definitely gave me plenty of food for thought and I would recommend the book to anyone.

One of the most interesting parts for me was when this spiritual friend of hers tells her that she should stop trying to control everything in her life.  "If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the MIND.  Drop everything else but that.  Because if you cannot learn to master your thinking, you're in deep trouble forever."  Control your thoughts?  Instead of the other way around?   This personally seems amazing and almost impossible to me.  I guess what he was talking about was trying to forget about the existence of the negative thoughts, recognizing then but then trying to dismiss them.  The author then adapts this "mantra" that goes something like this.....  "I will not harbor unhealthy thoughts anymore" and repeats this 700 times a day.

I might need to work on that one

I have learned to dislike hypocrites.  I hate people that condescend to others when they themselves have done the exact same thing.  I hate it when someone gets mad at you but can't see that they do the same thing they are getting mad at you for (did that sentence make sense?)....

I am a sucker for piano music - yes sometimes pop-ish music with piano in it...  My new favorite is a band called A Fine Frenzy.  Definitely emo like...  and definitely affecting me today....

A FINE FRENZY LYRICS

"Near To You"

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing
Fading suddelly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Yet, I'm better near to you.