I had a dream about green rings of light

I had a dream I like to share with you. It gave me a little bit more understanding of myself, and did help me and it might help some of you, for even though the dream was created to a sudden event it can apply to many other things.

I dreamt I woke up. My body was heavy and it was not easy to move it, I could jus move very slowly, like I was in slow motion.
Heavy energy was flowing through my body, like a heave undercurrent. I held onto large, green, rings of light.

I heard a voice say, why are you holding so tight onto fear?
Is this fear, what am I afraid of, I asked, little surprised as I looked at the rings in my hand.
Each ring had a certain thought to it, she will get lost and wont know the way back to the hostel, they will be drugged and kidnapped, she will loose her friends and cant seek help because of her social disorder ect. As those thoughts came to my mind I felt the strong feeling to each thought. And they were my feelings, my ideas about what and how.
Why do you hold so tight onto the rings, the voice said?
If I let go I’m giving a green light for all this to happen, I answered.
You are hardly breathing, said the voice.
I know, I replied, by holding down my breath I’m holding onto the danger and keeping it with me, that’s the only way for me to protect her.
Are you sure, the voce asked, experience with the rings, make new ones and try to let go of one and see what happens.

I thought of other things I could fear for my children, small things, and at the same time I saw a ring of light appear in my hand and I felt a little heavier.
I talked some courage into me and let go of one, very small ring. I saw the light disappear and the ring with it. I tried another and the same thing happened.
You can’t control what happens to others by holding on to fear inside of you, the voice said, and if something happens it will happen no matter whether you hold tight onto the rings and fear or not. The only thing you can do is to embrace the individual if and when something happens and then the rings will only bee in the way.
So I let go of the rings, one at a time, and watched them diaper I didn’t do anything special, I jus decided to let go, relaxed and took a deep breath, and they went one after another and I became lighter and it was not so difficult to movie the body anymore.

It is so easy to fear for our children and other loved ones. There are so many of us out in the world holding on to green rings of light, not daring to let go.
Some of us have children with serious illnesses, whether mental or other, and we are afraid of where the illness will lead our children and what the affects of the cure will bring with it.
Others have children that are drug attics, and fear the consequence, crimes and imprisonment and death they could face.
So many of us are dealing with all kinds of unbelievable things with our children, small things and large, real and imaginary, easy and hard, and we are ready to do almost anything to help and protect them.

But it’s right what the voice said, to hold onto a green ring of light and not dare to breathe is of no help to anybody, not our children nor us.
So if you are living in fear of something, it’s alright to let go, relax and breathe. What happens happens. And we will deal with it when it happens not before.



Ps.  I woke up at 4 o’clock this morning, gave her a hug and whished her good trip. She was going on a trip with her friends. They are flying to Finland and taking a trip with a greyhound to Tallinn, Tartu, Riga, Vilnius and Copenhagen. They will stop for some days in each place and then fly back home.


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