I watched a movie this weekend called "Equilibrium" and a poem by Yeat's was quoted..
He Wishes For The Cloths Of Heaven
Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
Made me think about life and the way we live it. Are we moving forward having new experiences and gaining new memories, or are we living in Hindsight on a street called Dispair?
Taking a step backwards it's very easy for one to say "Oh, you should do this" or "You could do that" but it's not so easy when you're living it. Going through the fire is harder than looking back and saying "Man that was hard." or "Maybe if I'd done it this way it would have been easier." But here's the clincher. If we made the choices we would have chosen in hindsight, would we end up in the place we are now AND are we sure that the place we'd end up would make us any more happier or be any less worse off than where we are right now?!
Aaah, but Hindsight is a beautiful place, full of imaginings and rose-coloured glass, but it's filled with dark alleyway's called Unfulfilled and Broken Dreams and Regret and Anger and Uncertainty, which all lead to the highway called Dispair.
I admit there are days when I wake up in Hindsight and it's a "crepe" place to be! Always looking backwards. Seeing the future through the murky smog of Hindsight. Kinda reminds me of Lot's wife. Instead of looking forward to a new future and a new life, she look backed and thought "If only...."
Ok maybe you're thinking she was crazy - I mean who would want to think "if only" when it was raining fire and brimstone behind you??!! (Then again...maybe not...who knows) But it seems that there's a thing to be gotten from this story.... Hindsight is a dangerous. "Yeah right," I hear you say. But seriously. Although you may be standing in the present, far from the events that happened in the past, looking back on them and wondering is just like Lot's wife looking back at the burning city. Pondering and thinking "if only" has physical repercussions. For Lot's wife (lets call her Saline), it was a pillar of salt. For you or me, it could be a cloud of uncertainty that overshadows your life - "cant do that because...", or perhaps it's a mental beating - "wish I'd never done that..." Whatever it is, it can't be good for you!
In this life we're supposed to be salt and light to the world....not end up as a pilar of salt! Like Yeats, do we live with our dreams, treading around carefully, hanging on to them and letting our lives be governed by the longing of them, or do we learn and then go forward with anticipation? Taking that leap of faith and saying "Now is the time for living!"
.....and then...after all that...here I sit....still!!!
Some kind of motivator I am *bah*