it happened today

and all i want to do

is stand in the bathroom

and breath the trace

of your cologne

 

i couldn't leave

you, growing cold

under the sheet

your limbs starting

to stiffen

 

i kissed your hands

the inside of your elbow

your eyes

all your favorite places

then i lay my head

on your shoulder

my spot

 

i still want to be

there with you

warming all i had left

let the nurses

peak nervously in and

retrieve their machines

with their tubes and wires

taking with them

every ounce of their pity

 

i am there

even now

in that bed

where i died

today

 

someone tore apart

half of my house

and i'll leave it

open to wind and wet and rot

because anything new

would be less

 

 

Kevin Ward

May 26, 1965 - June 18, 2008

 

i love you, baby

only you