Chillimuncher's blog

Wash over me - waves of waves.

Feel the feeling - feeling all I can

Don't dare say - there is another way

I .....

Bwa-ha ha ha... =0)

Life is so wierd.. funny.. good and amazing.. 1 moment you're down .. like really down, the next you're flying high.. don't take the lows too serious! ;0) Thanx YOU guys..

I'm thinking of leaving this country... Tired of all this $#!%!

Thinking of going to NZ.

What you guys think? Where would you go if you were me?

UPDATE:

This is a crazy country.. but it's my country, my home, and I love it. I was a bit confused for awhile... but I'm staying!

I love my Father, but I cannot understand..

Yet... My life makes sense.

My Hope is sure.

My pain is real.

In all these things,.. things so surreal.

I know the truth, yet still I feel.

Bring my Serenity, bring my peace, bring an end, bring release..

See my eyes, through the tears, wipe them away, and just be near.

where people really loved one another. where it's not all about me, myself, my benefit, my comfort, my profit, my pleasure, my selfishness... where I don't act based on my want's and what's good for me, but rather, where I act based on what's good for others, doing unto them as I would have done unto me. where we are patient with each other where we are kind... where we do these things always, based on our true love for each other and not feelings. Just imagine. Let's change the world, starting with me.

It's you I really miss. If I were to see you some day, walking, standing, talking, being, what would I do, how would I feel, what would I say. The time we spent was so brief, but in that time I lived a lifetime. The storm blew, as we stood, facing, drenched, just feeling, as the rain beat against our faces, peace inside, alive. Now I'm here, you're there, apart in time and space, but still there is that space, that special You place. I really miss you. J9

You were my everything

My one true love

I gave you everything

My big heart could

We found a closeness

A place so warm

When we were close

It just was right

They took our everything

And smashed it up

Like exploding planets

In outer space

You'd never know

Looking at my face

Deep inside my heart

There's still that place

Ecclesiastes 7

12 Wisdom is a shelter
as money is a shelter,
but the advantage of knowledge is this:
that wisdom preserves the life of its possessor.

13 Consider what God has done:
Who can straighten
what he has made crooked?

14 When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one
as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future.

15 In this meaningless life of mine I have seen both of these:
a righteous man perishing in his righteousness,
and a wicked man living long in his wickedness.

16 Do not be overrighteous,
neither be overwise—
why destroy yourself?

17 Do not be overwicked,
and do not be a fool—
why die before your time?

18a It is good to grasp the one
and not let go of the other.
The man who fears God will avoid all extremes.

 1 Cor 13

 1If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,^[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

  So....

My wife is pregnant.  How's that!

And you guys are going to be some of the first to know (other than family)..

We don't even know if it's a boy or a girl yet - just found out yesterday..  I'll keep you posted.

 

UPDATE:

Um.. ja.  Well..  Next time.

I believe God's timing and love is perfect, so I still give thanks and respect to Him in all things.  Well, I try - I'm not perfect.

There will be another baba...  And it will be beautiful.

Not sure if you guys have seen this (or want to...).  Very intense.  But I think it's good to see.  WE have sooo much to be grateful for.  It puts life into perspective.

http://todayspictures.slate.com/inmotion/essay_chernobyl/

I'm standing once again, in the driving rain. 

I hoped that things would change, but all remains the same.

I'm feeling tired, and sore.. My hands tied, my heart raw.

 

But.

The sun WILL shine again. 

Like the sun rises every day, and Winter, Spring, Summer, Fall...

So I'm looking to the sky...

I don't want to miss that beautiful sunrise.

This place it drives me mad.
I need to get away. 
Into the cool air outside.
From this stagnent place.

I can be so self destructive.
I can be so negative.
All I need is...
I will not say.

Let's go for a ride.
To a beach far away.
Understand me inside.
Not what I say.

The wind is blowing strongly.
Dark clouds deep inside.
A tear escapes, run's down my face.
The morphine has a hold.

I look around for eyes.
Someone to relate.
Every I is somewhere else.
None can see my fate.
None can see my...

Wow, it’s been getting busy at work again. Funny, where I work it’s periods of inactivity, even boredom, frustration, which makes you want to find work elsewhere. Then, everything happens all at once, and everyone wants everything done yesterday. Blah!

It's so easy to let others influence us, especially when they are close to us and take up a lot of our time.

That said, we should not let those people determine in what direction our lives are going, especially if we find ourselves being led down the wrong road, a road you're not content with.

I've been going down such a road, and I "could not see the forest for the trees"...  You find yourself in a big dark hole, wishing you could get out, wondering how you let yourself get there in the first place (but I do know the answer to that).

Anyway, sometimes it's necessary to step back and see the big picture...  Decide your course and follow it.  This may not mean a whole new path, but may be a different approach to progress on the path you are currently on.

A healthy perspective is essential in all areas on One's life.  Having such a perspective can allow you to see the best in things, and ultimately be more content and at peace.

Hy Guys/Friends

I just wanna say thanx to all of you for the stuff you do and for who you are.

I appreciate you all.

Take care of yourselves this festive season..  Have fun.

Love to you all.

Steve

Ahh... sorry guys, don't want to bring anyone down, but I'm only me..

I'm empty, floating pointlessly

Alone

There's a aching deep in my chest

I cannot cry...

Time drifts slowly

I'm just here.

 

I'm in a good mood today... Yay... It's so cool to be able to go through the day without letting anyone get you down, and at the same time lifting peoples spirits, making them smile... =0)  I hope I can spread a bit of that to all you guys so far away..  MWAH!!

Take care, be safe, try to be positive... If you need to cry, cry.. Cry big and long and WET!!

But cry it all out and then smile...    Cause it's great to be alive!!!  WoooHooo!

Just Tuesday evening i was trying to get my thoughts down on paper about the Value of Friends..

Yesterday I read a post where the author was putting across how it's always good to show people how you feel, even if it's just by leaving a smile.. =0)

Then this morning I read another post about being thankful for one's heart (even if it does get broken), because with it we can love, ..., and we can be kind. ;0)

This is so true.  We are "hardwired" to need one another, even if it's just to know we are not alone in this world.  We crave interaction, attention, love...

After all we go through (the challenges in life which are there for all of us, and necessary for our growth) sometimes it's the smallest things that make us the warmest inside.

So to those of you who make an effort, or just naturally have the ability to encourage and build others up, to warm hearts with simple, but genuine love...  THANK YOU

You lighten our loads, put things in perspective, make everything alright.  You are more valuable then you may realize...