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It's monday morning and it's pouring with rain.

I am tired and just got the information that the weather forecast doesn't show one of these sweet little suns until tuesday - next week. Anyway, why is _he_ passing that information to me? _He_ has to live with me, so _he_ should be really careful on what to tell me on a rainy moday morning...!

Two weeks and two days to go to my examination... I get more and more scared. And my head feels more and more like it could explode any time, just by touching it or making a wrong move...

oh what an annoying start of a new week! :-(

 

 

it's july!

I'm wearing a fleece sweater, winter-socks and still have to drink hot fluids to keep me warm...

something's wrong here! (I reckon someone didn't pray hard enough...!!! :-/ )

(and no... please don't tell me anything about global warming - can't hear that anymore. It's cold. That's it!)

 

I am profoundly nervous and fidgety, I can't concentrate on all the work I have to do and my boyfriend won't believe me that oil/petroleum is _not_ made of dinosaurs...!

(Well, actually he searched the whole internet to prove me wrong, then finally he found something that told him that this (-oil is made of dead dinosaurs-) was a theory 20 years ago... Which also shows that his children's lexicon wasn't at all wrong. Thanks God! Now we can live happily ever after...)

24 hours.

in about 24 hours I'll be a nervous wreck. two hours later I reckon I'll be drunk. but now I actually feel fine and pretty calm. probably can change every second. I try not to think of it...
Anyway... right now I am more looking forward to it. I want this examination to be over. I need to become normal again: Talked to my breakfast yesterday and had a half-serious homophobia-incident...! Not to mention my not-very-existent sex-life and the desperate jumping-attacks I have from time to time...

Good: slight feelings of indifference are taking over my thoughts.

I'll be fine...!!!

all the time I wondered if it was worth it to be *that* ambitous about that examination.

now I know: It definitely wasn't.

I will never "give up my life" again for a damned mark...

Objectively I still did good. But it wasn't what I expected.

So, I got some sushi for the soul and now I will go and see bruce willis to keep me distracted. and then I will just try to forget about everything. and start living...

boys don't cry

 I know it is not very ethical to still watch tour de france these days. I still did it until yesterday. Yesterday, broadcast-stations in Germany stopped the live reporting of the tour because of a new doping incident of a young and hopeful German rider.

I was a bit annoyed at first, because this just happend when my examination was over and I would have really had the time to watch the tour - especially when it is going into the pyrenees in a few days. (I love mountains. To see the landscape is one of the reasons I like watching this sport-event...!).

On the other hand, I think it was a good choice of the stations. It's consequent and gives a clear signal - though I don't know if this will really prevent them from doping. Maybe just works long-term when all the sponsers stop their sponsering in cycling because of this and... and what? No more cycling anymore? At all? ... Probably not. Maybe just in Germany... Sounds like they don't make such a fuss about doping in other countries.

Well, I really wonder how this whole tour-and-doping-stuff will go on. What do you think? Am I the only one that still likes and watches LE TOUR despite all ethical reason? (bad, bad me...).

this feels good. the work for the day is done. had a little change of perspectives today. in the morning I had to supervise a test at university. in the afternoon I had to write one myself...

well, maybe 'write' is not the right word. the test was in a computer programme we are working with (ArcGIS), so the first bit was some theory, the other practice infront of the desktop. actually I found it pretty relaxing. much easier than what we did during the lessons... - which was good, because after my *big & important* examination last week I couldn't be bothered to do much for this one...

So after the test I just wanted to give my lecturer (fwhom I am working for) some keys back, but he asked so kindly to do him a favour (no,actually two)... that I couldn't say no ;-)

But now I am home, listening to Joshua Radon (played as an opener for the incredible ms. tori amos) and get my stuff ready to meet some friends for barbeque at the Neckar-River. Life can feel sooooooo gooooood =)

Talking about good: I AM NOT going to work much this weekend - instead...as my boyfriend isn't home this weekend I will shamelessly cheat on him - with Harry Potter...

I wish you all a relaxed and sunny weekend!

I went for a run today and it was sooo beautiful :-) ... the sky in dark grey, the sun coming out, illuminating the trees in a wonderful green and at a particular place golden hay bales, the Odenwald and a grey sky in the background - and even a rainbow!!

As I never take my camera when I go running this beautiful picture stays only in my head - and you... you are left with your own imagination of a beautiful place...

I saw this already three times today and I am still laughing...

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