I have been sick lately, been to the doctor twice in the last two weeks. It's been a respiratory thing and I think I'm finally gaining some ground on it, but it's been wicked......I wake up hacking and coughing for twenty to thirty minutes until I break a sweat before it will stop........I'm so sick and tired of it.......which is beginning to inspire me to try to stop smoking......allergies are bad and I've only had them a couple years, but smoking complicates all these things.....I grew up in a time when smoking was almost a badge of adulthood......so the mental battle is the hardest one for me to fight......every adult I knew smoked......quite a few of them have quit.......not I, I'm an idiot on parade.......LOL I have cut back from a pack and a half a day to one pack a day......if I smoke less I get the jitters. But since it's been a couple weeks on this regimen I think it's time to shave off some more, which wont be easy.......the hardest ones to shave off will be the ones I have with my wine........I drink one glass of wine every night for my IBS. It seems to calm my stomach and my nerves........

My daughter finally has finished the drawing she intends to submit to the fair this year........she wins the local fair easily even though she is in competition with people much older than her......it's district she keeps losing......I'll post the picture in my picture's section.......

I have a neighbor who's been there for awhile and they've had no car, so I run her around once in awhile and take her shopping.......they will be moving in two days and believe it or not, I'm gonna miss her......sometimes it cramped my style to take her here and there, but honestly I don't have much else to do anyway. They have two kids who love to come over and are friends with my kids.......I'm going to miss that some too.

My dad is coming in for a visit in a couple weeks but this time he's going to stay at my sister's house......the accommodations aren't going to be as nice for him but at least I wont be giving up my bed while they are here and besides, it's been a long time since my sister has been so accessible to us all. For years she lived like a gypsy moving all over the world with her husband.....now that she's divorced and settled here, it's a blessing. She keeps talking about moving elsewhere sometime in the future, but that's no surprise......there isn't much here in rural nowhereville to keep people occupied. It suits me because I've been elsewhere and I'm satisfied knowing it's all there, I just don't need any of it.

My brother has been to visit a couple times......we talked about Doc. He said since no one saw the body to his knowledge at a viewing (Doc was cremated), that he's not so sure Doc is dead, he thinks he staged his death so he could go do something really important.......but with the stories Doc used to tell my brother.....that would seem more than plausible. However, I googled him and found out a few things that seem more logical and blows doc's stories out of the water and explain why he would have lied about his past. He lost his license to practice medicine in New Mexico for being impaired on the job, this happened the same year he moved here and put up a shingle......I heard he was on his way to losing his license here too, probably for the same thing. But maybe my brother isn't ready to grieve Doc properly yet......so I can understand why it would be easier for him to believe the man is not dead. I think had Doc kept going the way he was, he could have been a dangerous man in some ways.......he had his problems....and the Lord works in mysterious ways......

Well, I'm tired but I won't go back to sleep until my morning nap.....hopefully it will be a good day for that........thanks for taking the time to listen.