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I've found myself living and working in an environment that is against everything I believe in.. Why am I living in a desert, in a city that has no culture; no personal, religious or political freedoms; is completely unaware of the environmental catastrophe that is the country and is arrogant, inconsiderate and downright rude?

I realised on my recent trip to the UK and with my upcoming trip to Australia that this life isn't for me. I don't want to feel continuously restricted by my environment and the culture around me. I don't want to participate in destroying the local environment any more than it has already been destroyed. I don't want to continue to drive to develop this city so that oil barons can get rich and more people can live unsustainably in a wasteful, desert city.

The answer to why I left Australia is to explore my horizons and to make a break from my past. The answer to why I am here is contradictory to all I think that I believe and feel: Money and big sexy projects. Two things I thought didn't really motivate me. Turns out, they motivate me to treck halfway across the world to a desert, but don't motivate me to work now that I am here. The only thing that motivates me now is the thought of saving enough money to make my experience worthwhile and to get back to the world of the living. I spend my time here divided between living and simply existing.. Simply existing is no longer and option.. So I need to find a way to live, here, for 6 more months.

So, for the time being, I'm stuck here.. any suggestions to make work less of a chore and to have some more motivation?