regression

A regression is to seize the understanding of both past and present. It makes sense to see the “I” as being the one who is doing all other things including observing. I think we spend most of our time looking back than forward. It is truth that we cannot move on forward without looking backward. Like a path that leads itself around a tree, and you not seeing the path. You don’t know what is ahead, so you’re instinctively reacted to look back. Cause if I choose this step to move forward, and I cannot see around this tree, what does it mean for you, what does it mean for me, what does it mean for everybody? There are some positive aspects to regression but to an extent. I think we regress because we are unable to move towards thing to further develop our self and to promote the growth necessary for further understanding of a lot of things. Regression is sometimes motivated and controlled by our fears. If I fear that I am not going to be happy because I did not say what I had to say, I have caused myself to feel today and for tomorrow that I am going to feel regret. Regret will turn into a regressed perception because it is the sense of “I should have done” vs. “I could have done.” Should and Could are opposites of each other. And we can say that a window is a way to sit outside of you and truly think about what being taken is placed inside. Sometimes you can pull up the chair a little further, and feel what is felt from outside the window. Can we place ourselves behind and in front of the window? IT is like if our self looked at us from inside to see our self from the outside. What would be the reaction of each other?

Or would the idea be that you are only focusing on what you see in front of it and behind it? Everything else around becomes lost and not needed. In regression, there is a focus. We always have focuses. If you are going to say that I am going to be the observer, you will be the observer. That mind frame will alleviate pressure, it will alleviate any regrets, it will alleviate any ability to feel obliged and connected, and it will also help you to not have a biased view. I think that stepping outside of ourselves is natural. Sometimes it is easier way to deal with things. In writing, I write out of personal curiosity and personal way of making sense to me what I think would be me looking inside on myself and as well as others. I am curious about the human interactions and why we do the things we do. That would make sense to us, but someone else would think not. And we feel there must be an answer. Sometimes there isn’t. We are left to experience what we have as our way of just living our life. The sacrifice is sometimes letting go.
Letting go is often the hardest things to do when it is always something that we feel we must stay a part of. I watched the new Batman movie, “The Dark Knight,” and a lot of what was said among the characters got me thinking about the sacrificing and losing as a core theme of this movie. Heath Ledger and Christian Bale really played their roles and made it easier to get into how they saw life. You have the JOKER who was angry and resentful of his father who damaged him, and turned his love for his father into hate and no forgiveness about the world. That somehow we all have sides that come out of us when someone sees we are only this one person. You have the BATMAN who wants to do good and protect but in the sacrificing to protect there is lost, and a vulnerability that you cannot save everything to be right and fair. Even being good to others, will sometimes seem as unfair because you place yourself in a risk that could be based upon a chance. I suggest everyone who is reading to watch this movie. Is our life a chance, is regression a root of chance?

I find myself inside the head more than not, and in my head I am looking at all angles and reflections from looking at the window inside and how would be outside of the window. And I think this is by chance, I, will somehow get stuck trying to feel and think as a "fixer." I need to fix to make it better. I fix through regression, hopefully, in a positive sense.

(sorry for long response) ;)

don't be sorry for a long response! i m just sorry i have been too lazy to reply. i was thinking the other day, that there is a little of this quality of regression in photography. the camera gives you a window on the world and we lose ourselves in looking through it, and see differently as to how we would in our normallives. writers and photographers, at certain times, both need to be observers, to have distance or a new perspective on the world around,

but who are you when you are observing?

Not to worry on the length time of response. I have been lazy myself. Today on this Saturday I can surely relax. I think with photography we are capturing the world in our hand and others would say it is some form of illusion. We project it in a way that we want it to make sense to us as the observer or the actual person in the action. The world still continues and go forward as do time. We are just standing still to take in what we find fascinated by, or want to understand it better. Like I enjoy nature photography. What am I doing in gardens and taking so many photographs of flowers, people, and the entire atmosphere? Does it mean that I am seeking some form of eternal peace? If I am the observer, I am looking into the world as it is and trying to understand that everything flows back to the same point-creation. Sometimes it can be the way you were (regression) as a child, I've always took walks with my mother and stared at flowers, bees, trees, skies, etc. Somehow my past is still followed into my present.

I agree that we have to create this form of distance for us because we can be easily affected by it. Somehow I am there in anything I write or photograph, only time I observe when I am too focus on the subject in front of me. I like how the camera is our eye as we look into the world. What are we looking for? How does our passion grow when we are distant? Is it our comfort zone that we can step away and still feel apart from everything? I love to feel. I feel alive in things that I create in this world. It's my passion.

You could call yourself a bystander instead of an observer. ;) Now bystanders see everything but they are consciously aware of what is happening, they do not make themselves physically apart of what they see. Like the person around the corner who leans against the wall while everything exciting is born in front of him. He rathers stay in that place even though there is more movement and action in front of him. Maybe it is a time of his day that he don't have to be included. Some people are just natural observers. I think I am one. I do not say a whole lot but I watch everything. I am in it than apart. Though I separate when I am studying people.

Who are you when you are observing?
Maybe it's called a reflective state, Jonathan. We reflect when we observe, do we not?