So today I relapsed in cutting. Today i cut for the first time in 1 year and it felt good it felt like i could feel the emotionally pain i am going through. It felt like everything was disappearing with ever cut it felt good too let everything go for the moment. Now all that is left is the scars and the memories of what i did and why so in the end nothing really changed but the scars on my skin. It might be like this for awhile because the lasted time I started cutting it didn't stop after just one time. I didn't want too start this again but i did now i have too try and stop i know i can but i forgot how good it felt and how much it made me feel better. But most of all how much it made me forget about what was going on at that moment of cutting. RELAPSE OF RECOVERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!