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| All those years |
Sometimes I contemplate about: Where are all those years gone? Where is your childhood, your dreams, your weightless existance you had one day? And then I look into the mirror, see myself and all the life & history on my skin and my whole body. And I see my hair losing colour and strength, my skin losing smoothness, my body becoming less elastic. And I stand up in the mornings with an aching back and neck after I've had a bad sleep with nightmares and sweat again with countless fear energies moving in and out of me. And then I have some cigarettes and too much coffee for breakfast, too much work during the day, too less time for my kids and my whole family & friends, hunting after freedom, saying "hello" to old haunts. It's all about creating safety for those who trust me and who will blame me for failing.
Where the fuck is my butterfly-like childhood, where is my free and open heart. Who the fuck have I become and who have I been?
I am an artist in a shark business. I struggle with not becoming a whore more and more. I have to say "thankyou" for shit I don't like and I have to run after things I love. I am only 35 years old, father to two, mortgage and all that shit. Just a normal sheep, I'm just like everyone of us. God may bless my kids and save us all.
DerBaum pro says:
Vogelmann pro says:
SuperMarina says:
I find it interesting how many people compare humans to sheep, while the biologists say pigs is the animal that is most like us physically. But humans are most definitely not like an animal that can be so perfectly happy and content laying in a mudpuddle. We're more like sheep, who follow the flock and are anxious and restless till the day we die.
Vogelmann pro says:
Zeituhr says:
Älter werden ist die einzige Chance auf ein langes Leben ,,, oder ?
Wenn der Körper nur mit dem Geist wachsen würde .... leider ist es andersum
such is Life ...
Wilco pro says:
What counts is the things you do in between. I recognise the feelings you have, I have them too. Guess it comes with the age ;-(.
Many years ago, I decided not to pursue a music career (made some small-selling records, never overcame the fear of singing in front of an audience or mic) and went into information technology. Having done that for 10+ years quite succesfully, I'm still wondering what's the purpose of it all. My heart is still with music, although I do see the commercial "let's score a hit and make lot's of money" side of it. I guess that's the dilemma of many modern people...do I go for the 'normal life' or follow my dreams...many chose the first, some choose the latter and end up living the first and only a very few follow their dreams and are succesful. Ain't life strange...
Anyways, if you're up for some 'difference' why not get together and make that difference? In music, I need a person to 'tame' my ideas..